Saturday, 5 April 2014

11+ Part 3

Ahh chooo!!....ahhchi....

Oh this cold! It’s been a week since my ‘debacle’ and now this. It is quite amazing how I get cold with every weather change. Though I am myself to blame but who doesn’t want to have some ice-cream and chilled coke? At least I can’t control my appetite. It’s like it(food) seduces me to the point that I can’t control myself and finally give in. (Yes you can laugh now!)

But still the cold was least of my concerns for I am more inclined to her rather than myself. Ha ha...hilarious! But seriously I am not well. In addition to the cold, I was feeling weak, fever is playing hide and seek and maybe many more is running in background.

This was not enough for the almighty. The Half-yearly exam is scheduled in 2 weeks. Wow God; round of applause for you....Clap clap!

Who will teach me now,huh? Seriously I should have proposed to her after the exams. But then my theory:”Exams will come and go but the girl won’t be there for you. So cash in!”  I did so...and look where it got me. Can’t we rollback? But then it is already auto-committed. Ha!

It’s not that I didn’t try to talk to her-to pacify her; to tell her that what I told her was from the core of my heart. But then how to bell the cat without being mauled? It’s been weeks since we talked now. We both were avoiding each other. She now sits besides the driver leaving me to stare the road behind. In school though there were moments when we came face to face, and just when I had gathered some courage to initiate the talk, some random girl would call her and she would go in a jiffy. You, yes you random girl-curse you!

Back home my mom is quite worried of my health. Seems like the fever has made a record in itself. Though the Doctor has given medicines but still there’s no sign of improvement. I had been shown to two doctors now; first one declared it as malaria. Wow! But my dad was not convinced so he went for some tests and visited doctor number two. He declared that I maybe suffering from typhoid. Further tests confirmed it. Thank god dad was not convinced otherwise I would have been diagnosed with wrong disease. Seems like my beloved ‘Gol gappa’ is the “culprit” since that’s the only outside food I had for a while.

I think God is multitasking in giving me the pains- Anu, exams and now typhoid; and he is seemingly enjoying it. 2 weeks has already passed since I got the fever and it’s getting no better. It takes nearly a month for the typhoid fever to subside so my half-yearly exams are gone. It is quite boring in the house. Not that I don’t like my place but I am surely missing school more so her. It’s like a drug addict has been denied his regular course of drugs. Oh! I want to go to school and to just look at her the whole day.

Mom: “Here’s dinner”

Me: “Ma, I don’t feel like eating. Can’t I skip the meal?”

Mom: “No beta, you have to, otherwise how you will get better?

Mom: “And another thing; your friend Abhishek called, was asking about you. He told that he’ll visit you after the exams.”

Me: “ok”

Finally someone who cares! You can have many friends (mathematically speaking: n number of friends....ha!). They will be all over you-laughing, partying together like an integrated network. But only those ones are really friends who care for you in your bad times. Don’t you care for me Anu? Doesn’t my absence concern you? For me it does though...

Half-yearly just ended and I am getting better too. According to doctor I need to take 2 weeks rest in order to fully recover from the illness. I can’t wait. But I have to, for I don’t want to fall ill again, not after what I had gone through for the past 3 weeks. Imagine opening books after a long time....yup me to...ha! I tried to study but the mood was not building. Somehow something was missing. Anyways who cares? I tossed my books and plugged in my headphones ready to delve to somewhere else away from reality. I thought about what I should do when I go to school. Shall I try again  or just simply apologise to her? She never said no though...but then she never said anything positive too...oh I forgot-she doesn’t talk to me now....hmmm. Maybe Abhishek is right. Maybe I should forget about what happened. Could you give me a walkthrough please?
“Everything that I want
I want from you
But I just can't have you
Everything that I need
I need from you
But I just can't have you”

 Green Day-you too?  When something bad happens everything starts feeling bad. It happens like a chain reaction. You trigger one and the rest will follow. Such is my case.

“What are you listening”

Me :”Nothing...just listening to some new Green Day songs.”

I didn’t even see to whom I was talking to, but definitely it was not my mother. Wait a minute....this voice....what the hell is going on...i turned my head to be sure and yes! God! Shocking it is....it is Anu. What is she doing here? No no it can’t be. But I may have an answer.

“Are you Death?” 

Maybe death has come to take me away but before that decided to gift me the one that I desire the most....seriously it happens to all of us...just fall in love once...you will surely get these unwanted, superfluous thoughts. Ha ha what am I thinking?

Slap...and it echoes...slap slap slap slap(bollywood style)

Ok this is surely Anu....I can feel her touch...a quite painful one though, but still it’s better to have something. I so miss her tender touch; like when her hand brushed over mine while we studied together.

Anu: “Intolerable, like always....uhh...I told you na Abhishek...now see it with your own eyes.”

Oh! I see Abhishek now...he was standing just by my side and I just didn’t see him. Wow! And he’s laughing...why wouldn’t he? I mean “death”-seriously? Now I have showed my level of stupidity. Common Abhi do something...

What could he possibly have done? Anyways I just heard from him that it was her who wanted to meet me. Considering that I had been suffering from typhoid; she was quite concerned of me, hence she asked Abhi to call me.

She’s so that into me....I should definitely do something. Question is what would be most appropriate one? I have already been slapped once.....though another one is still ok as long I can be with her.

Anu: “Are you going to tell something?”

What is wrong with her? Just some weeks before she didn’t want to talk to me. What just happened here all of a sudden? Anyways who cares? When a girl is concerned for you, she definitely feels for you.....ummm...this is my queue I think.

I ignored Abhishek once gain though I had no intension to do so. Offo, locha hai ulfat ho gaya...
We talked about how their exams went, what should I do to cope up with the gap in studies. It was pretty clear that she was not at all interested. So I finally decided to say it.

Me: What do you want me to say?

Anu: How do I know? U tell what do you want to say?

Me: Ok then....are you still angry with me?

Anu: Seriously...now after all this you are asking me if I am angry with you ? Really ? Dumbass; you can’t even initiate a conversation properly.

Me: How do I know of what you are thinking? When I tried to talk, you just ignore me completely and now you are saying as if you don’t know anything. Did I not express my feelings to you that day? Was it not enough for you? Tell me now for now i cannot carry it anymore....

Anu gave her priceless smile for some time....something to die for...really and then she said it...

”oh my lover boy, I heard each and every word of what you said that day. I just wanted to see if you were really true about your feelings?”

Seriously ? She was testing me? Do I seem like a slave to her....apparently I am now.....literally....of her love.

At this moment I was staring blankly at her, helpless of what to do next. Did she really accept my love? Does she feel the same for me now?

Watching me stare at her, she smiled again and then imprinted my cheek with her rosy lips....awesome...I am not washing that cheek for now. Abhishek as it now seems knew it all from day one(damn demon was conspirating with her).thik hai chalo maaf kiya...


 Both of them started to leave now for it was quite late. I with my new found happiness hugged her dear and got a even bigger response from her.

Anu:”Are we even going to a date or something?”

Me: Oh...yeah...Surely...anytime.

Anu: Love you....bye.....

 It’s quite astonishing as to how things change in a flash. Isn’t it? Is it God’s way of showing sympathy to troubled beings? He he...quite hilarious. Shall I thank you God? But what about the bad luck you gave me huh?Just kidding...for all reasons...thankyou...

Zindagi tumhari leti bhi hai aur mauka mile to kuch accha de bhi jaati hai.....

I think I will now have a fast recovery for I have found out the motivation to do so.

Kaise Mujhe Tum Mil Gayi
Kismat Pe Aaye Na Yakeen


Be positive , love life  and most importantly keep calm....
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