Oh No!

I hate alarms...they are just so cold! Fortunately I broke it yesterday...smashing it to pieces.

It is very hard to wake up and to disassociate yourself form bed. With the heat outside,I chose wisely...until now.

"Aakash! Wake up" Sailesh was yelling for no reason.

Me: "Ugh...what happened?"

Sailesh: "How the hell are you sleeping in this heat?"

The power was gone for an hour now. Quite funny...he may have thought I was dead.

Me: "What time is it?"

Sailesh: "A quarter to twelve!"

Oh no! I am late for office...but...but I just woke up.

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I couldn't have breakfast...but I would rather have brunch. Every day I try to wake up at 6...set an alarm for the same like the daily triggering time of load jobs. But then that lethargy! Plus I broke the alarm clock itself. I should dare not set the time at phone. My phone is very precious to me.

I was sipping tea and looking at the dog near the shop. I was wondering how they are roaming so casually with their tongues out in this heat,shouting and running at every vehicle that passes the road.

One dog came near to me in the hope of some food.

Sailesh: "Now look at you....taking to dogs now"

Me(displeased): "I was just looking!"

Sailesh: "What happened to you? Looks like you are pretty beat up."

Me: "Na...I am fine"

That line means we are never fine...you!...yes you should know that!

My phone started ringing now.

Balaji: "Aakash...were are you know?

Me:"Just coming to office. What happened?"

It's amazing how we are being afraid of something bad happening in our absence...all in our subconscious mind.

Balaji: "Nothing....the other team wants the go ahead mail to start their activity;so if you could come earlier"

Me: "Oh! I am just coming"

The dog was still looking at my food. I simply scared him off and gobbled the whole cake.He was staring at me for sometime,but then let go to move on to other dwellers. Quite uncomfortable but never mind.

Though I woke up half an hour ago;but the tiredness is still there. Now the worse thing...AC. It didn't help. I felt sleepy all day. It never occurred to me of when I slept at office. Guess that's a new low!

I finish my work and it gets late "sometimes". I leave-finally and then check my phone. Whatsapp-never ending notifications,10 missed calls. I call my mom to tell her about the day;to say I am fine. Then I turn to her....Akshita!

Long Distance...it sucks "sometimes".

Akshita: "You better leave me...what work do you do?"

Me: "Sorry...I had an issue at office"

Akshita: "Oh...don't you tell me there was an issue."

Me: "Okay(sigh)...what happened?"

Akshita: "Tell me something funny...anything"

Me: "Okay"

I feel very fortunate to have such a wonderful partner in my life. Of all the stress,tension I have of the day...she is the one that takes it all away.She in fact covers almost all the reasons for me to smile all day.

We were talking for quite some time on my way home. The road was empty but now I got terrified of what I saw there.

The same dog that I met this afternoon was lying there...like he was dying. I stood there looking at him...my feet just froze.

"Hey what happened?" Akshita seemed puzzlled.

I came close to the dog...it's like he was trying to talk to me; and then all of a sudden the dog jumped and said:

"You could have saved me"

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The wrath in the eyes of the dog was eminent. He was ready to tear me apart as if I am the ultimate food for him. I could hear the hello from the other end. Is this my end?...like this? mauled by a dog?

Balaji: "Hey...wake up"

Me: "Uhh?" I was quite terrified.

I was sleeping this whole time in office! So everything was a dream...that dog...what in the hell did I dream of?

Balaji: "The source file came...let us run your process"

Me: "Oh...yes...sure. You get it started. I will just freshen up."

It was fifteen past three. I checked my phone...only one message caught my eye.

"Get Lost"

That's all I got! The only thing Akshita had to say.

I checked my phone again.With the day I had today,maybe I am jut seeing things, but to no avail.

We ran the process. It went smooth.

I finally left office. The road was empty like in my dream. In an hour most of the locals will be out for their morning walks...such a bliss. I did not find the dog anyway...so in a way was very glad. Guess it was just a dream.But Akshita? The conversation never happened but the message was indeed not a part of my dream. 

I went to straight to my room. Damn...Power was still not there. I was certainly not going to office but the situation here was not helping either. 

Get lost? That was too much. Maybe I should have tried to more sensitive...she could have done the same though. Patience...we may have it in abundance but it all depends how we deal with it ☺

I lay down trying to be calm,trying to undo all the wrongs,reminiscing old moments cause maybe....maybe the situation demands so. Maybe the current predicament will pass.

I am really looking forward to it,for the things to be as they were....as simple!

I never anticipated things to be like this way...but guess we pick ourselves up every time we get up. I feel that we should always fight for the things we love or care about...cause every moment counts. I just hope the moment is mine.

Akshita...we are yet to talk. We will soon...but when? ☺

The Paradigm shift

"The Paradigm...theory of similar occurrences. You see, everywhere, there is a pattern..."

Suchi:"God...you are so boring"

Me: "Hey...ever wondered what could happen if there is a sudden change...a shift?"

Suchi:"The Earth never complains...there is sunrise and there will be sunset"

The sun did set...soon...I always love the view. She was somehow right...Earth never complains; we don't too on most occasions.

We plan this every weekend....sitting beside the lake,holding each other and looking at the infinite sky.  

Suchi:"Hey,your parents know about us?"

Me: "Um mm...I didn't yet."

Suchi:"Then make time...when will you?
             ...uh....I am going home."

Me: "Common...stay for some time...I will tell once I reach home tomorrow ok. Please now...let's not ruin this. We can watch the stars until the sun begins to rise..."

Suchi:"The keys..." 

How amazing is it. You are the lion of the whole jungle but then become a pet dog in front of her. Being helpless, I gave her the keys of our place.

Oh I forgot:

We have been living together for some months now; away from everyone with just the two of us, starting our lives together.

But I don't understand the point why she has to go home now. I was ready to tell her that I want to take our relationship to the next level; making it permanent...married. I was so excited for this moment. But perhaps I started off wrong. I mean being in a relationship and living in together to being married is indeed a paradigm shift in itself right?

Nevertheless it now started raining now. Hey! the weather was just so awesome.

Suchi (laughing): "Ha ha...see, even the gods were getting bored."

Gesturing her tongue towards me; she found the rain quite amusing. The smile I would die for!

I find Bollywood movies as quite amazing.Sudden rain sparks a rapid romance. Innumerous songs are written on this very moment.

"Hey wait for me!"

Seems like I missed the "moment" here. Very sad indeed. I ran to catch up and then...

Suchi: "Stop that stupid smile of yours"

Me: "Common...now don't get mad. What did I do know?"

Suchi: "Manav, its about time we decide on something"

Me: "Exactly,coffee would be great!"

She gives me "the look" and we go inside after a long walk of silence.

Me: "Hey...The coffee's great!"

There was a utter silence...storm's coming.

Me: "What happened?"

Suchi: "Seriously, I am not doing this without both sides agreeing to it"

Me: "Do what?" I thought it would lighten the mood a little but as always I just couldn't perceive the signs.

Suchi: "See Manav. I am getting old..."

Me(smiling): "Me too...we all are!"

Suchi: "That's not the point...anyway you are too dumb too understand. We want us to be with each other and now..."

Me: "We are together. Aren't we?"

Suchi: "Let me finish!"

I can see her losing her patience. It's very scary to have a pissed off girl by your side...very.

Suchi: "My parents called. Maybe they want me to see some guy...to be my prospective groom."

Me: "Oh...don't you play the marriage card on me. Makes me uncomfortable."

Suchi: "You want us to be together and then you are uncomfortable with even the word of tying the knot. What is wrong with you?"

Me: "It's just not the right time to get married(sigh)"

Suchi: "Did you even tell your parents that we live together?"

Me: "Where are we going with this? Common. You too didn't even tell your parents about me...What's with that?"

Suchi: "Kind of...but  you should have introduced them to me in person"

Me: "What's that supposed to mean?"

Suchi: "Nothing"

This is not helping at all. We are all over the wrong place.

Me: "Fine...this is going over my head. I have a flight to catch early morning"

Suchi: "Huh...I will go to my parents too. And yes; see the guy if possible..idiot!"

Me: "Yeah, maybe my mom has some girls to see for me too"

Suchi: "Manav! I will scratch your eyes!"

Me(winking): "I will tell you more about them"

I can be a jerk sometimes...but she was not helping too. Sometimes it gets very hard to relate to when she jumps from being silly to being serious. So many years we have known each other, but even then I can't get through this.

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"You both didn't have to come to the airport"

Mom:"Why not? You are our only son...it's been days I didn't see you. Oh...look at you. You have become so lean"

It is just priceless to see your mother smile because of you. It's hard to explain how her reaction changed when she saw me coming out of the lobby.

I will always be the child for her.

Me: "Happy Mother's Day Mom"

Nothing beats a mom-hug and kiss to the cheek. I was missing this so much.

Dad: "You didn't bring her along?"

Yes...if this confuses you. It should....my dad knew about her.

There was a brief silence among us. "umm...she went to her parents home"

Both my parents did a "hmm..."

Its when others do it that you realize how terrible "hmm" sounds like.

Dad: "Hey let's go home"

Me: "Absolutely"

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Mom:"How is the fish?"

Me: "Your cooking ma...it's the best ever"

Mom: "Have as much you can...you don't have these often I presume"

Dad: "Huh...my mom used to cook better!"

Me: "Hey,but you still lick your finger after you have your meal."

Mom: "See,my golden boy"

Me(laughing): "...and your golden boy will bring a golden bride for you one day"

I guess silence is the word here. Both of them were looking at me like I said something shocking. I mean it is a bit...but still.Perhaps it is still early?

I finished my dinner "silently"

The next day...someplace outside. I went out of home for hours;mainly to meet my friends(trust me there will be a story on this) and then bringing home some sweets for the guests arriving today.

My Mom tells me that I should definitely meet them. Acquaintances-the ones you know are there but never quite really there;they keep on coming now. Funny I never saw them when I was a kid or when I was growing up!

I was missing Suchi now.I left the reunion and called her straightaway.

Me: "Hey"

Suchi: "Yeah speak"

Me: "Huh...what happened?"

Suchi: "Nothing...In a hurry"

Me(smirking): "Just to let you know...the girls were pretty great"

Suchi: "hmm..."

Me: "What hmm...you jealous?"

Suchi: "Me? It's you who should be now considering I am close to that guy's house"

Me: "ohh..."

Suchi: "What now...cat's got your tongue?" (laughing)

Me: "and you are laughing to this...wow"

Suchi: "Idiot!(smiling)...I will talk to you later ok"

Me: "Hey but wait..." and she cut the phone...just like that.

Well that went great! All these years and then one random guy comes in...enough to make you uncomfortable.

I got a text from her soon "At least be convincing enough..." and a winking smiley.

"Sir,your package..." the shopkeeper was ready with the sweets.

Me: "Ahh...yes..thankyou"

So many sweets, confectioneries. My mom told me previously that my arrival will bring a swarm of relatives at home.  He he...it's pretty nice to get some attention.

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Life is twisted. I returned home to see my dad greeting me with a wide smile.

Me:"What happened?"

Dad(smiling): "You tell me"

Me: "I am not getting...here have the sweets"

I went inside...yes I got it why he was smiling...Suchi! She was not alone though...her parents were here. It's pretty shocking. At least I should have known about this. I am not saying that it is not weird...it is. But one look at her...how can I be mad...like ever.

We were talking...silently...through the eyes.

"What happened beta?...you are not telling anything!" her parents seemed confused

I was looking at her the whole time...gazed by her beauty. My god...she looks great in a saree-blue to be exact; little pink lipstick and a tiny white bindi. Exquisite!

She was screaming through her eyes to look towards them,at least to talk to them and I had that I don't care face. Anyway I had to and so it begins!

Later that day I found the time for her to be alone...seemingly. She was passing by the balcony to take a look around my house. I grabbed her and took her inside my room.

Me: "You...you are a very crazy girl"

Suchi: "And you are the dumbest guy...like ever"

Me: "Is that so...other guy huh...why all the drama back home then?"

Suchi(smiling) : "He he...I was just having fun."

Me: "That was pretty intense for me"

Suchi: "Hey...it takes millions of people to complete the world,but it only takes you to complete mine"

Me: "Oho...tell me why I should not kiss you right now?"

Suchi(laughing): "Who stopped you?"

Ahem...

We were interrupted by my dad and oh my god...there's mom too. It is such an embarrassment.

"I will just see where my parents are" Suchi slowly moved out. I was left with my mom staring right through me and then there is my dad, giving me thumbs up and standing right behind her.

Me: "I can explain"

Mom: "Hmmm...don't. We like her"

Me: "Ohh...like really?"

The smile...slightly fading at first but then you know its there,waiting to come out...and then it is finally there.

Funny how things pan out. Phew!

How I need a little sweetness in my life,

so your sugar

yes please

won't you come and put it down on me ☺