Weathering Away

 

It scares me sometimes on how little do I remember of the time before you.

Though at times I feel that perhaps losing much of past, wagering it against spending time with you was worth it. It far outweighs anything.

They tell me that I should just take it easy. It might take some time to recover, for it must be bitter, even though I never felt that bitter aftertaste. I wonder why, it is indeed awkward isn’t it? That lump in your stomach, the clot in your heart and then everything becomes silent which takes me to places.

Places like the silence before the incumbent rain.

I wonder why you wouldn’t look me into the eyes then, and my enquiry only made you angry. You told me that you were running late.

The station was buzzing with swarming heads. The crowd pushed in to avoid the rain while I watched you move away. But the damning thing was your pace, and it dawned upon me then that I knew too much about you.

The clouds broke loose and I had no strength to grip on to present. You held an umbrella, yet you held it closed, carrying it by your side as you splashed away under those broken night lights. So, I ran, to outrun your poor camouflage. I couldn’t hide, and I didn’t mind if I sucked. All I knew that I have to catch you now.

I hugged you on a rainy night on the street corner when everyone was in a hurry. Regardless of the state of the universe, I remember that there was silence in that moment, an agreement for silence in between us, except for the beating hearts, in synchrony and finely intertwined.

You may call it being seeping into nostalgia but perhaps that is the feeling which never goes away. And yes, the silence prevails, as I found you slowly drifting away.

Pieces of rocks slowly weather away in the carnival of rust, as at this precipitance I find you scattered everywhere, seeing you reflected in my eyes.

Living separately, the sky that seemed to shine bright once, has started to cry in unison again.

Yet, it is only the corner of the heart that has not changed.

Until it withers away.

Picture Credits: Memories of Fall