The Remembrance

You know what is my real problem? The fact is that I remember it can't be undone.

It’s hard to fathom the game we make of love or at least how it pans out to be every single time. It’s like everyone is playing checkers with their scars and then saying checkmate whenever they get out with a broken heart.

But he never wanted this. He never wanted to go out with a broken heart for nothing could have prepared him for the absence of her. The absence of you!

***

Abhinav: “Don’t be afraid...we will make it out of this; together.”

Anjali: “Are you sure?”

Abhinav: “Keep calm. It would be just fine. But wait; actually it’s quite okay...you look really good.”

Anjali: “What? I being tensed am good for you now...wow!”

Abhinav: “Oh common. I was just kidding. I just don’t want you to be stressed.”

***

The Fear and the Relevation!

It is like at any moment in which one could say,”I have never thought of it that way before”

The storm sets the fear. It is said that if you don’t have the fear then you are not living it. I had too. 

But it didn’t leave him living it; the storm made an end to it.

The storm had let him up so high that he felt he could fly; but then he fell and the fall...it crushed him completely.

***

He tells her everyday how beautiful she is. “You are mine” and his only, his love.

That when the sun is up or in the starry nights, he chooses her and that he always will.

She opened her eyes and felt the calmness. For now she didn’t wander anymore. Because right now she was happy...She found a purpose and so for today she rested in his reassurance. She has finally released all her broken past and believed she could trust her heart this once more.

***

Anjali: “Are you giving up on me?”

Abhinav: “I have no other choice but this...I can’t do this anymore”

Anjali: “Leave me alone from this time then”

She wanted to tell but could say only this.

He was there standing under the pouring rain as she left by. He ran for her but the scene seemed hazy before him. Perhaps it was the lashing rain or perhaps he was too broken to cry. His legs seemed shaky and so fell on his knees.

“Anjali, Anjali” he pleaded but then she had already become the silence. The silence that kills!

And so he screams and says:

 “If I decide to give up on you, please understand how much it took out of me. I am not like the other guys. I am the one who gives endless chances; always have your back even when you are wrong and the one who truly accepts of who you are. When the rest of the world doesn’t want you, I will. So if I decide to give up on you, please understand that it took everything...everything I had left inside of me to leave you alone. Because I love you and care for you and there isn’t anything on the planet I won’t do for you.”

He panted and hoped she got the message of him in the midst of the rain. If only the storm could provide!

***

I am dying

The silence in your voice and the heaviness in your heart...I can feel it :(

I am not sure if the words that I bleed are reaching you the way I want them to. I am not even sure if the words I pour from my soul are mine or yours!

I am sorry :(

***

The snow was falling and he saw everyone smiling.  He faked that too.

Jingle Jingle...ho ho ho!

Santa was arriving at the park with tons of wishes to fulfil.

He sat there looking blankly from the chair until a child comes to him and asks

“Hey mister...why don’t you wish something to Santa Uncle? Santa is making our favourite wishes come true”

Child was sweet and innocent. So was he.

Smiling he replied: “Maybe Santa hates me”

The child looked at him and asked: “Did you offend Santa?”

Abhinav: “Yes...I disappointed him”

Child: “Don’t worry. Santa forgives everyone”

It’s amazing how your heart can sink and how much one person can affect you.

He got up whispering to himself while leaving the child and the park.

“He may never forgive me”