The Falling

She's the tear in my heart, I'm on fire.

It’s 3 am now and he is still struggling to write the lines; those never ending lines. Perhaps it is yet another day.

***

I am bored!

There is a raging urge to leave everything behind and come to you. Just to be with you; spending countless hours to just look at you.

And when I do; that boredom turns into something else. Something meaningful, like the world is yet to be unraveled and we go on an adventure to embrace the change. The whole universe…it’s all in your eyes. Right here, right now, it’s all I need. So relax your mind and set it free and let me look at you like no one else.

The obsession!

I have been told that sometimes I go to sleep with a stupid smile on my face; perhaps for some days…yes. That smile, your smile…the yaeba…skips the heart beat every single time. 

You're so good-looking. But I wanna know. Do you break things when you get mad? Or eat a box of chocolates 'cause you're feeling bad? 

Look at me I'm falling.

Time! 

I don’t know why I am being restless here. Maybe this is after a long time that I have been hit this hard with this feeling. I am really not sure. I am sorry too if I am getting too much excited here. I am really trying my best to take it slow. Trust me please.

The rush!

Have you experienced the same when you are drowning? Well, I had almost drowned once.

Your lungs are being filled with something other than oxygen and you can hear the rush of the water beating against your skull. You are having a mild spark inside, your skin is becoming clammy and you can’t see straight. You can feel the air leaving your body and your heart shredding against your chest in its desperate attempt to keep steady.

It is the same what loving you feels like. Can’t move, can’t think and all I can do is feel, feel everything, feeling myself slowly letting go, loosing sometimes. Feeling my heart exploding but yet feel my soul filled with light…your light; and the eyes filled with wonder and the life filled with laughter. All I can do now is just keep feeling the same; and I feel is that drowning isn’t so bad either. Drowning in the depths of who you are; it’s wonderful.

Loving you is everything I have told myself to be patient for. For you are the one; the book with all the right answers.

***

She: “You wrote all this or someone wrote it for you?”

He: “What do you think?”

She (laughing): “It’s pretty lame you know”

He: “If it is so bad then no need to publish”

She: “It is not that bad though”

He: “Oh common you just said it being lame”

She: “Aww…I was just playing with you honey”

It’s so amazing when you have to deal with so many contrasting statements at the same time and not be a complete dumb fool. My friend said once that it’s a trap but it is too late now.

It has been some time since.

But where are you now? Lost in mine or in your unconscious mind?

Well I am wide awake but where are you now?

***

He wanted the moments to stay.

Stay now, stay forever and be constant this way. But the clock’s ticking; slowly with minutes flowing away; hovering for a better tomorrow (maybe?).

Day after day he hopes and he prays, that his steps comes to follow the unwavering land of mystery, where the sky comes close from up high and she falls from above; to catch her with his arms fully open.

Until I fill you completely with love

Until I read you a hundred times like prayers,

Until my fingers say something to your hair.

Until my wishes flow a bit in your waves

Stay with me, don't talk about leaving.

 Please ☺